The storm inside you!

The waves come rushing towards you, languidly drifting you away from the materialistic world. A world where people change in flick of seconds, where genuinity is not genuine, where expectations are unlikely to become reality and where hellos and goodbyes are all concocted. Taking you away from a world that is fake.

                    

Yes, I feel so at times. And right now as I sit on the beach side feeling the winds pass through, I wish my life was exactly the way I wanted it to be. No hardships.. No disappointments. These disappointments that I talk off are not the ones I am going through, but how I have been a disappointment to people. Because they expected - and I could not stand up to their expectations. How weird is this now, right? But, indeed true. This is one side of the story.. A story which is about my life. Well, my life's not always like this, like a mess and has never been so actually. This time, it's just taking me on a roll showing me how life is not always like a bright sunny day.

Now talking of the other side of the story.. Which I suppose doesn't matter because no-one is bothered about it. A lot of things keep adding on to the storm of emotions I carry inside. I do not intend to be weak and so I think I can handle it all by myself, not expressing my feelings, not talking to people about it, not being an open-book (Did speak out my feelings once though, only to realise it can only make situations worse). 

Basically it's a fact, once you are in a negative mood all you sense around is negativity. You happen to pick only the wrong things and start building your life around that. You mess up more and you   forget to look at the brighter side of life again.

Probably life never wants you to be sad, it is your inhibitions that refrain you from coming out of the storm that your mind is building up for you. 

Well, at this point all I remember is someone telling me.. Nothing is wrong, you are always going to have me by your side. May be not the way you want it, but surely in a way that is right for us. And I know, that person is right in saying so.

To all of you who happen to read this post.. Your problems and storms are nothing compared to what a lot of them out there are facing. And I realise this myself today. Surely, beaches are the cure!