The storm inside you!

The waves come rushing towards you, languidly drifting you away from the materialistic world. A world where people change in flick of seconds, where genuinity is not genuine, where expectations are unlikely to become reality and where hellos and goodbyes are all concocted. Taking you away from a world that is fake.

                    

Yes, I feel so at times. And right now as I sit on the beach side feeling the winds pass through, I wish my life was exactly the way I wanted it to be. No hardships.. No disappointments. These disappointments that I talk off are not the ones I am going through, but how I have been a disappointment to people. Because they expected - and I could not stand up to their expectations. How weird is this now, right? But, indeed true. This is one side of the story.. A story which is about my life. Well, my life's not always like this, like a mess and has never been so actually. This time, it's just taking me on a roll showing me how life is not always like a bright sunny day.

Now talking of the other side of the story.. Which I suppose doesn't matter because no-one is bothered about it. A lot of things keep adding on to the storm of emotions I carry inside. I do not intend to be weak and so I think I can handle it all by myself, not expressing my feelings, not talking to people about it, not being an open-book (Did speak out my feelings once though, only to realise it can only make situations worse). 

Basically it's a fact, once you are in a negative mood all you sense around is negativity. You happen to pick only the wrong things and start building your life around that. You mess up more and you   forget to look at the brighter side of life again.

Probably life never wants you to be sad, it is your inhibitions that refrain you from coming out of the storm that your mind is building up for you. 

Well, at this point all I remember is someone telling me.. Nothing is wrong, you are always going to have me by your side. May be not the way you want it, but surely in a way that is right for us. And I know, that person is right in saying so.

To all of you who happen to read this post.. Your problems and storms are nothing compared to what a lot of them out there are facing. And I realise this myself today. Surely, beaches are the cure! 

That one person..!

Long drive. Right kind of music. And that perfect person whom you can speak out your heart to. This is everything you would want to have to zone out from the world and just be yourself.

When whatever you talk, something that does not even make sense, is listened to with utmost patience and you are just not being judged on that. When complete silence is not awkward, rather it brings you peace and deep inside you wish to stay like this forever because you are so comfortable in that company.

Now this perfect companion I am talking of need not necessarily be the person with whom you are going to spend the rest of your life as your partner. Can be someone whom you look up to for advices, someone who understands you the way you are, some proclaimed best friend of yours, someone you want to spend time with or someone you have just met. Sometimes people just come into your life and take that important place in your heart which is unexplainable. Probably, you may know they are not going to stay forever.. but still because you never want to loose them, you hold on.

And here is when we talk of Mind-control and Heart-control. It is said, one has no control on his heart.. That is indeed true! Your heart is a wanderer, always on the lookout for love. And to your heart are attached your feelings, which again, fly like a free bird. Contrary to this, there is your mind, that puts up questions, raises restrictions, forces you to think and re-think. In fact, I would say it sets things straight for you, letting you know what's right and what's not. Your heart might definitely take you to your ultimate destination, only that your mind gives substance to it.

Coming back to 'THAT ONE PERSON', all of us have him/her out there. All that we have got to do is; go identify that person. And if destiny permits, never let go off.. Keep holding on them! :)